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Tue May 12, 2009, 12:16 AM

I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. And to you that know what that is it should be no suprise many of my ex girlfriends had it to. I started dating other cutters at such a young age I grew to be attracted to the scars because almost all of the women I have ever loved had them. This may seem sick or even strange but welcome to our world.

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Watching: the abyss
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I joined to meet people like myself. I am working on getting some of my paintings but so far all I have are a few of my black and white studdies. I enjoy dark and morbid art as well eastern religions art abstract and photography and always looking for new styles.

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Current Residence: Denver
deviantWEAR sizing preference: large
Interests: Boderlines, scars
Favourite movie: Exorcist
Favourite band or musician: Deftones
Favourite artist: Hieronymous Bosch
Favourite poet or writer: Bukowski
Favourite style of art: eastern
Skin of choice: scarred
Tools of the Trade: acrylic and pencil

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~CrazyMorbidMollie May 21, 2009, 9:07:35 PM

It's always nice to find those who understand, but even better when you find someone who can help you out of this. I am now in an S&M relationship and it's amazing how much it's helping. You can still get the pain and release without the blood. I've also done something I never thought I would again. I let someone in completely. I call him My Master. He's helping me heal my emotional scars and wounds that never healed. And I'm growing so much from this. You'd barely recognize me from the girl you met back in December......

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For my will is as strong as yours and my kingdom is as GREAT! You have NO power over me!!!!

~cellerdoor1 May 18, 2009, 3:59:18 PM

Hope all is well stay as strong as you can. Have you been midicated or seen a psych doctor. I am on meds it helps but not a cure. There is no cure for the hole in my heart. I know it sounds strange that the only way to deal with my emotional pain is physical pain.

~xregretsxromancex May 14, 2009, 1:46:19 PM

scars as in scars or scars as in tattoos?

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I'm in love with my own sins..

~cellerdoor1 May 15, 2009, 7:57:17 AM

Scars as in scars those are scars on your wrist or am I wrong if I am im sorry

~xregretsxromancex May 15, 2009, 8:55:42 AM

No, you're not wrong.

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I'm in love with my own sins..

~cellerdoor1 May 15, 2009, 10:58:55 AM

I have been a cutter for fifteen years and my arm looks like hamburger. I hope all is well with you I know how hard dealing with feelings can be. You are beautiful and I'm sure a very deep and creative person. This affliction is a blessing and pain in the ass at the same time being able to feel deeper and longer than almost anyone else. I admit I am kinda hitting on you but I admit I am feelings and emotions they drive my life if I feel it, it is real to me. Let me know if I overstepped my boundries. Luck and love' Kris

~xregretsxromancex May 16, 2009, 8:26:03 PM

I've only been doing it since i was fourteen [i'm twenty now]..i haven't cut my wrists in over a year and a half, but recently started on my legs..easier to hide.

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I'm in love with my own sins..

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